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Hello, my name is Summer Wardhani and I’m a provider. Now, if you are sure that you want to go ahead and read all this below, sit back and relax, for this may take sometime.

As a child, I soon learnt not to depend on others. Mum and dad had their own concerns, I had my books. At 17 I took the opportunity and left the parental home. At 21, one month after completing my license degree I was working full time, and married since the age of 19. Divorced, then remarried. Had my son at 29, then divorced again. Lived with my last partner for eight years and on my own since March this year.

At professional level, I’m used to be successful and my commitment and competences recognised and rewarded (as far as one can say such thing I suppose, lol). But then again, when your daily schedule tends to last for 12 to 14 hours a day… well the least your boss can do is realizing you are useful, right ?

Two years ago I was given a fabulous opportunity of finally having… a life beyond work. A miracle happened and a new job came along, and with it the chance of enjoying some normal office hours.

With unexpected time on my hand, I looked around and realized my son and two stepdaughters only needed the same attention they were used to. A bit of talk during dinner time, some help on their homeworks, and full deep conversations from time to time whenever the girls came looking for some advising (yes, girls, for you know guys – even very young guys – do not welcome deep conversations, lol).

My loving partner kept himself entertained with WoW during night and dawn, then slept throughout the day and worked randomly here and there. And one fine day, Cat Magellan wrote on her blog she had found out a Second Life. I followed her there.

November 25, 2008, will be my second rezzday. During this time, I have learnt a lot about myself and the others.

I learnt that sometimes you’re not really having a life and yet you don’t even notice it, simply because you are so damn busy the whole day that when you finally stop you just… fall asleep.

I learnt that sometimes you need so badly to be loved and cherished that anyone fulfilling the minimum requirements can just come through the holes in your life, and settle down easily in your heart and soul.

I learnt that when you’re feeling down and depressed is when those who were supposed to keep by your side shrug their indifferent shoulders and go on with their own lives.

I learnt that help sometimes come from unexpected sources; but then again, just because someone helps you in a certain moment, it doesn’t mean they are your best friends for life – it simply means they had nothing better to do at that moment.

I learnt people joined together in groups can be as mean and cruel as kids in basic school.

Thus said, I’d advise you to do exactly the opposite I do : no matter how you feel, try to be nice all the time. Help others as much as you can. Forget about yourself and place the ones you love always before your needs. Keep yourself available to listen, jump off the bed at the mid of the night and go where you are needed, sink your own bank account so that everyone else has everything they need. At the end, I am sure you will get back twice of everything you have given – plus a statue and a golden rolex, of course *winks.

My name is Summer Wardhani and I’m a provider. Read and learn from my experience.